Finally!

Well, summer may not be officially recognized by our calendars yet....but my classes are now over for this semester. Grades are in (all A's)...yes!!! I am soooo ready for a respite. This semester was soooo busy. The fall promises to be even more "fun"!!!! Yikes

I don't know how much blogging I'll do, but I just felt like blabbing a bit. I'm so addicted to Facebook now, that I rarely blog. I get all of my frustrations, joys, etc. out in that format now. It's also enabled me to reconnect with so many friends. Friends I haven't seen since high school.

It's been nearly a year now since I was summarily dismissed from a job I held for 30 years. I'm not as fixated on the whole ordeal as I was, but I am still angry...and confused. I still do not understand WHY it happened. Nor do I understand how a "man of the cloth" could do such a thing. I guess I will never know. He refuses to apologize. I must find a way to make peace for myself.

But without a job.....without a paycheck.....for nearly a year....it's not been easy. And as time goes on, it's only gonna get worse. And that burden is only gonna dredge up my feelings of anger for this person. I pray that God will give me peace to move on. I pray that He will help me find a way to get beyond the anger and hurt and just go on. I don't expect I will ever get any answers...and for me, that's a hard one! I always wanna know "why"? This is just one of those times I may not receive my answer.

I pray that God will help us find a way to survive ..... financially, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. The whole "incident" has left me and my family devoid of a spiritual connection. I so need that. I so want that. Not just for me, but for them as well. I don't know where this journey will take us. I don't know where it will end. I can only pray that God, in His infinite wisdom, will give me peace. I know He will allow things to happen the way they should. I just hope I have wisdom and fortitude enough to let go and let God!

Wow! Time Has A Way Of Getting Away!

I see that I haven't posted here in almost two years! I guess I really lost my mojo when I was working full time and going to school, etc. But, then I also found Facebook! I reconnected with sooo many friends. I all but totally abandoned this blogging business.

I have been through sooo much since my last post on here. The boss I gushed about turned out to be a .... well, a ...... hmmmmm ...... not a nice person at all. Without warning, provocation or explanation, he summarily dismissed me from the position I had held for 30 years!

This past year has been VERY difficult. I lost my best friend to suicide, then I lost my job without cause, then my Dad got very, very ill (we were told he didn't have long), my husband lost his job, and in February of 2010 I broke my ankle -- relegating me to a wheelchair!

But, you know, they say "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." "There's a silver lining in every cloud." "When God shuts a door, he opens a window."

I'm trying to find the positives in all the events of my life over the past year. I have found many. I am trying to get beyond the pain and hurt of the last year's events. Most days I am successful.

But through it all I have found who my true friends are. I have also been blessed with some new ones through my classes at ETSU. I honestly believe I am where I'm supposed to be. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the fabulous school friends who have become a part of my life. They are my strength and encouragement as I continue this journey to become a teacher.

I now have one year left at ETSU to earn my bachelor's degree in elementary education. I am so excited.

After losing my job, that I gave my heart and soul to for sooo many years, I was absolutely devastated and had my self-esteem knocked pretty darned low. But.....I realized that I was giving waaaaay too much power to that. I have been shown the true meaning of friendship and family love through all of this.

I now attend school fulltime (which means I will finish ahead of schedule). I maintain a 3.9 grade point average. I have the most amazing friends and family. I still have my Dad in my life (despite the odds).

I feel more at peace these days and look forward to the challenges quickly approaching. And as soon as I am able to get back to church-hunting, I will be looking forward to that as well. I found one before I broke my ankle that I really enjoyed. I will be going back there. I will also be open to other "callings".

But, with everything I've been through this past year, I know that wherever I land, it's because God put me there.